Miscarriage. Pregnancy. Postpartum. Motherhood. (Part 2)
Pregnancy. Physically, mentally and emotionally pregnancy can take a toll on your body. I was so thrilled and excited to be pregnant, the first and second time. Although, pregnancy after loss is stressful and scary. Your every thought is making sure the baby is okay. Every appointment your heart races as you wait patiently for your OB to find the heartbeat. Once you start feeling the baby move, you make sure you always feel their movement, their kicks before going to bed. For me, I didn't automatically feel the connection with the tiny miracle in my belly. I was too afraid to connect for fear of the worse happening. What if I miscarried again? What if shes not growing right? What if there's something wrong with her? What if I lose her late in the pregnancy? What if I lose her at birth? I hated feeling and thinking these thoughts. I wanted to really enjoy my pregnancy, I wanted to be overjoyed by every movement and connect with my baby instantly. I felt like the worst p
